Life is so much more than that. It’s so much more than settling down. It’s about so much more than getting a sparkly ring on your finger. It’s so much more than finding another human being to love.
Have fun pretending you are better off without her. Have fun picking up the pieces you pretended were never there. Have fun living life faking a smile.
You question your love for them. Even though deep down you know you love them, sometimes you question your own heart. Your anxiety sometimes can make you second guess yourself and downplay your gut instincts. Sometimes, you really do think to yourself, do I truly love this person? Is this person really a good fit for me?
Loving yourself is getting out of your comfort zone even when it’s scary. It’s going to that party when you know no one. It’s chatting up that cute guy or girl that keeps eyeing you. It’s making a new friend and feeling all at once like you are understood. It’s deciding to follow your intuition even when it’s terrifying.
So don’t go back. Block his number. He doesn’t deserve your heart. He doesn’t deserve your energy. And he doesn’t deserve your love that you show generously wanted to give him.
In 2018, put yourself on the top of your priority list. Put yourself first. Start believing that you are a force to be reckoned with, instead of believing that you are nothing. Start believing that your heart is so much more precious than you have ever remembered. And start believing that you, and your soul, are made to be loved.
What changed over the last three years is not the places or the people I have met along the way. What has changed, is me. What changed, is me finally putting myself first. What changed, is me deciding that I am worth it. That I deserve a happy life and a career that I adore. What changed, is the mindset of believing in myself again.
I used to think hair dryers were something that took too much effort for what always turned out to be frizzy and dry hair.
Our story ended shortly. But now I think it was supposed to be that way. It was almost too good to be true. You were almost too pure. Too bright, you could have blinded me.
I have still so much to do. So much to see. So many more people to meet and people to love and adore. I have so much more exploring to do. Exploring myself, figuring out what makes my heart race or slow down. I have so much to learn about me. So much to grasp onto and to soak up what life has to give me.