This Is Why She Stopped Picking Up Your Calls

girl on phone

She had to stop replying. She had to stop answering you. All it did was make her feel worse. All it did was make the pain sting her more. All it did was make her miss you more.

She stopped picking up your calls because she couldn’t handle hearing your voice anymore. She couldn’t stand to hear your slow breaths that always sent goosebumps to her arms. She couldn’t stand to hear you say, ‘I miss you’ one more time. 

She knew that all you were was talk. All you were was half hearted promises and missed connections. She knew that you are just a player. That you didn’t really love her. You were just pretend. And she was only a game to you.

She had to stop replying to your texts. She had to stop answering your drunken 2 am calls. She had to stop stalking you on Facebook all day long. She had to stop thinking about you. She had to stop wasting her days and lonely nights with you on her mind.

She would never get over you, if she accepted every one of your messages. And she needed to move on with her life and with her heart.

You hurt her heart too much. You hurt it deeply, so deeply in fact, that the wreckage was done. She will never get those pieces back that she so graciously gave you. She will never be the same. With and without you.

So she has to let you go. It’s nothing against you. It’s not that she hates you or resents you. She loves you. But she knows her worth now. She knows what she deserves. And you never ever deserved her.

She loves herself more than to ever go back. She can’t possibly go back to the broken promises and the times where she was constantly let down. She didn’t deserve that then and she doesn’t deserve it now. 

She loved you. She adored you. She could have given you the world. But all you did was run all over her. All you did was wreck her heart. All you did was turn away, when she could have given you everything.

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