Holly Riordan

She gets attached easily because she isn’t used to being treated with kindness. She is used to being ignored. Blending into the background. Feeling invisible. Feeling like she does not matter. 

You hardened her soft heart. You are the reason why she no longer believes in fairy tales. You are the reason why she is closing herself off. You are the reason why her world is falling apart. 

I found a few of my Instagram pictures, some with my eyes marked out in red. Some with a black sharpie line across my throat. Some with my head cut out completely. 

I am tired of thinking that everyone else deserves more than I do.

Don’t expect me to answer your texts when you can’t answer mine.

Your anxiety might make you think that you are never going to find love. That you are destined to end up alone. But that is far from the truth. 

Aries: You keep acting like a relationship is going to destroy your independence and using that as an excuse to stay single.

I am finally learning to put myself first. I am finally realizing that I deserve more than what you have been putting me through. I am finally seeing my own worth. 

When you love someone, you don’t walk away because you think that they are better off without you. You don’t give up instead of giving the relationship another chance. You don’t throw up your hands and say that it’s too late to change. 

Virgo: You give out too many chances. You accept bullshit apologies and let people hurt you over and over again. You don’t lose faith in them — even when you have every right to walk away. 

You are difficult to love because you have high expectations. You expect your person to text you back quickly. To keep promises. To follow through on plans. To set aside time for you. To schedule date nights.

I am never going to find happiness unless I risk letting myself dream, letting myself reach, letting myself grow upwards and outwards.

“I’m not going to apologize when I didn’t do anything wrong.”

I want to be the person you care deeply about, not the person you could easily live without. I want to be your only one, not just another one. I want to be your first priority, not your second choice. 

Promise yourself that you will not settle for anything less than you deserve. Walk away from anyone who talks down to you or treats you with disrespect. Make sure that you only surround yourself with people who have earned your attention.

Aquarius: For you, the meaning of life is to create. To inspire. To motivate. To make something out of nothing. To make sure that people are still saying your name long after your death. 

Date someone who cannot rest easy knowing that you had a rough day.

I’m not asking you to give up your friends or your dreams or your independence. I’m only asking you to treat me the way I deserve to be treated. I’m only asking you to make a commitment and stick to it.