Nikita Gill

You see, here is the brutal truth about people: they may have the absolute best intentions, but they will, like the leaves of the trees that promised they would never leave, drift away. They are temporary and unreliable. They have their own issues to work through, and no matter how much they promise they are going to be there for you, people will let you down. It’s human nature.

This is how true love happens. This is how lasting love happens. It is not the movie theatre type of romance, it is not grand gestures, and dying confessions. Love, real love, is in the quiet of a thunderstorm feeling safe.

Thank you because even with all the pain and the heartache and the pain, I do not regret you, you were not a mistake. You were not something to forget easily.

No, I am not going to sit here and pretend the problem was me when very clearly it was you. You don’t get to treat me like I am nothing but a fire you need to warm your hands by only to douse it out when the time has come to leave.

One day you will find someone who shows you that everything that scares you can be defeated.

You are blessed, you are, because you have something other people have given up, little realising how precious it is. Your kindness is the most wonderful thing about you and it comes from the softness in your heart, from feeling too much where others feel too little, from noticing the things that other people just pass by.

The strongest ones of us need support more than anything in the world because of being strong so very long that when they fall apart, it is not just a human falling to pieces and recovering, it is an avalanche, a volcanic eruption, the amount of pain that you could not imagine possible for a human to hold within themselves.

For even when you are at your worst, even through this I will love you.

The cruelest thing someone can do is convince you that you will be enough for them.

I have never understood why some people feel the need to get territorial over and play games with other people’s partners. Even when they have their own. It doesn’t matter if you were friends with the guy before he got a girlfriend or a girl before she got a boyfriend, there are some lines you just do not cross.

The thing is, human beings, we are incredibly resilient. We have dealt with great pain and heartache and still manage to recover. Sure, maybe we are broken. Maybe we are lost. But my God, do we recover from the terrible things that try to destroy us.

Life is about more than work and marriage and success. It’s about being a good person. It is about appreciating every person that enters and exits your life whilst you have them. It is about living a wholesome life tailored to you. It’s about making mistakes and learning from them. It’s about falling in love with the wrong people so when the right ones come along you know how to appreciate them.

The truth is, you deserve to be loved. Even now, with all of your flaws. However difficult you think you are, there is someone out there who will love you. 

You see, I focussed too much on what I gave, and not what I was taking in return.

You have forged yourself. From the very womb of your sadness, from the womb of your old self, you have come out, borne of blood and pain.

Look for the kind of love that makes you grow in every way you can.

Kindness is given freely. It is given with your choice. It is given to those that require it, not those who think it is their entitlement and their right

I’ll never forget the words you said to me. “What happened to you, you used to love me.”

I began to choose myself. That’s what happened to me.