Kelly Douglas

I’m tired of carrying myself with grace and poise even when I’m seconds away from breaking.

She’ll express her deepest fears without reservation, worrying that she is unworthy of your love, fearing that you will walk away and leave her brokenhearted. But in return, she’ll create a foundation of honesty in your relationship, encouraging you to speak what’s on your heart, no matter how vulnerable your own fears may feel.

I lead with my heart and Your spirit, encouraging me to live my life by Your virtue, Your grace alone.

In 2020, I hope you live for your own happiness.

2019, thank you for all I left behind. Thank you for the moments my heart broke as I walked away.

Some heartbreaks are meant to stimulate your personal growth. They reveal that you are not infallible, that you are human, that you have the capacity to feel and heal.

I’m working through my brain’s lack of serotonin one day at a time.

As I wait for You to send me a sign of Your presence, navigate me through the darkness and bring me into the light, reminding me that in Your deep love for me, You will never leave my side.

I will never unlatch my fingers from yours, soothing your deepest worries, proving that nothing can pull us apart.

No matter what you eat, don’t sweat it off.

Without them, you will grow.

This is me standing in front of you, asking for your forgiveness. 

You may not see your light today, but it swells within you, waiting to be discovered.

Date someone who will wait for you, someone who is eager to love you at every stage.

But it’s okay to walk away. It’s okay to leave them.

One day, you will fulfill every dream you’ve believed is far too unreachable. 

Date someone who is willing to put you first.

But I can no longer live under the weight of our deafening silence, wishing I could reach out, constantly pulling back.