Rania Naim

I will forget you when I feel like our story is over, when we’re running out of pages, but for now, we still have a lot of pages to fill, for now our story is being rewritten.

Maybe you scare them because you value yourself, because you’re strong enough to walk away and because you’re smart enough to know your worth. Maybe they got so used to being put on a pedestal that they don’t know how to be anywhere else.

I’m not sure about what the future holds for me but I’m sure I want you in it. I know I want to spend my next birthday with you, I want to take you home for Christmas, I want to plan my vacation days with you and I want to wake up next to you every morning.

A train doesn’t wait for late passengers or passengers who are not sure where they’re going. They only let passengers in who are on board, who booked a ticket, who know they have to be on that train to get to their destination. A train doesn’t make excuses for confused or hesitant passengers; a train doesn’t care about those who can’t make up their minds.

You no longer try to impress others, you just want to impress yourself. You feel happier that you’re not looking for someone’s approval or validation, you’re not waiting for someone to give you a pat on the back for doing things right and you’re not waiting for someone to make you feel like you matter or that you are important.

One day I’m going to rest my head on the pillow and sleep right away. But you will rest your head on the pillow and start missing me. You will start to miss my smile when you try to look for something that looks like it, you will miss my eyes when you can’t find someone else who looks at you the way I did, you will miss my touch when no one else wants to hold you when you’re tired.

I gambled on your strength. Your physical, mental and emotional strength. I thought you’d pick me up whenever I fall; you said you’d pick me up whenever I fall. I thought you would lift me up as easily as you lift these heavy weights but I should’ve known that you already have enough weight to carry, that you can’t carry both your baggage and mine, that my baggage was too heavy for you.

I’m learning to let love find me. I’m learning to stop decoding messages and mixed signals and signs and wait for the clear message, the message that is so obvious and easy to understand, the message that doesn’t make you question or second guess anything and the message that you’re truly waiting for.

It’s easy to replace someone who didn’t give you much to lose.

The love you get mirrors how you really feel about yourself; if you try to embody the qualities that you are looking for in a partner, you will eventually attract someone who is willing to give you exactly what you want.

When she tells you he’s just not that into you. Believe her. She’s seen the way he looks at you and the way he acts around you and she knows better. You’re probably infatuated or blinded by how much you like him but she is watching him and looking out for you.

I wonder if I’ll keep trying to fix all the people who are already unfixable. I wonder if I’ll keep cutting myself trying to put their shattered pieces together. I wonder if I’ll ever learn that they won’t stop me from bleeding when they are the ones who keep slashing my veins.

I used to miss you all the time when you were gone. Everything didn’t make sense without you. But then I stopped missing you when I started to miss myself, the way I used to be, the energy that I had, the things that I wanted to do, the dreams I wanted to chase and the path I wanted to follow.

If money and career were no object, what would you really be doing?

Almost is another word for NO.

I trust you. I really do. I know you will not destroy yourself, I know you will come to realize that certain things happen for you to grow, for you to believe, for you to change and for you to grow wiser. I trust that you will understand the lessons life is trying to teach you, that you will discover the beauty within you when you’re hurting.

You always burn yourself when you’re drinking coffee or tea because you can’t wait for it to cool down.

I don’t know if you prefer running or lifting weights but I know I want to run with you wherever you want to go and I know I want to lift some of the weight off your shoulders if you would let me. I want to show you that you don’t have to run or lift alone anymore.