Depression Lies, And Here’s Why You Can’t Believe It

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Alf Santos

You’re lying awake on what is another sleepless night. How you wished you could just stay sleeping. But you’re interrupted by a harsh reality that is your life.

It’s another 2am. It’s another lonely night. It’s another battle inside your head that pulls at you, like a tug of war. These voices that creep into the night telling you all these things, and you wish you could just turn it off. You want to change the dial in your brain, but they are always there, lingering, waiting, watching so they know when to strike at any moment.

This is depression. And this is living with it.

But what they don’t tell you about depression is, it lies. That voice inside your head is telling you a string of lies, I’m asking you to not believe.

Depression lies and here’s why you shouldn’t believe it.

Because you are worth it. But depression says you’re a burden.

Because it will get better. But depression says it will only get worse.

Because you are normal. But depression says there’s something wrong with you.

Depression lies and here’s why you shouldn’t believe it.

Because you aren’t sleeping. But depression says there’s a way to sleep forever.

Because you aren’t eating. Because depression says if you cave you’re weak.

Because you have friends. But depression convincing you, you’re lonely.

Because you may be social. But depression is living in your own world sometimes.

Because you may be confident. But depression asks why and tries to knock you.

Depression lies and here’s why you shouldn’t believe it.

Because you matter.

Because you are loved.

Because this pain you are feeling is felt not only among you but many others.

Because I know you feel alone.

I know you feel not worth it.

I know you have these dark thoughts, that things would be better, the world would be better, things would stop hurting if you end it.

But that is depression fooling you again.

Because it has never been a person who commits suicide, but rather this disease that lies to them. It tells them things and gets inside their head and it doesn’t go away and the thoughts don’t end until you end things yourself.

But depression lies and you shouldn’t believe it.

And here I am, where you are, whatever you are doing, whatever internal battle you are struggling to fight off. I’m asking don’t listen. Because depression lies. But I’m here asking you to stay. TC mark

Kirsten Corley

Kirsten is the author of But Before You Leave, a book of poetry about the experiences we struggle to put into words.

Trace the scars life has left you. It will remind you that at one point, you fought for something. You believed.

“You are the only person who gets to decide if you are happy or not—do not put your happiness into the hands of other people. Do not make it contingent on their acceptance of you or their feelings for you. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if someone dislikes you or if someone doesn’t want to be with you. All that matters is that you are happy with the person you are becoming. All that matters is that you like yourself, that you are proud of what you are putting out into the world. You are in charge of your joy, of your worth. You get to be your own validation. Please don’t ever forget that.” — Bianca Sparacino

Excerpted from The Strength In Our Scars by Bianca Sparacino.

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