Okay So Why Am I Always Thinking About Dying?

https://thoughtcatalog.com/jennifer-reeves/2019/06/hanna-smith-hs/

I’ve come to terms with the fact that I might be obsessed with dying. Not that I want to die, but that I prepare for it at every turn. I think about how depressing it would be for my parents and friends if something were to happen. I’ve rehearsed what my last words would be if I had the chance to choose them.