// a sauna // a plunge // an emergence //
I wake up to a text from my friend on the west coast about last night’s episode of Girls.
Because life doesn’t stop here. It doesn’t end because you left.
They say, “Yes you will suffer.” But they don’t say, “But you will also experience the deepest of joys. You will experience the births and deaths of the greatest of loves.
I’m tired of meeting up with my friends and having nothing to say to them, because nothing has really changed since the last time we hung out.
Left for breakfast — ate a breakfast bagel in the sunshine, smelled a pink rose, drank a coffee that is right. Pet a dog for 30 minutes with my one hand, legs draped over the wrong side of a chair. Pet another dog. Lost my keys, found my keys. Hoped across train tracks barefoot. Sat and talked with people who were kind.
Where you are is here. Right now. And what if you celebrated that?
There is more to this life than believing what you have right now is all there is, that this is all you can get, that you’re stuck. There is more out there; go get it.
Was it when he slipped the little white pill in my gin and tonic?
YOU are the facilitator of your world, your experiences, your change, and your non change.