Holly Riordan

The rest of the world sees you differently than you see yourself. You’re not wearing the same set of lenses. 

You’re worried you’re going to turn out too difficult to love in the long run.

Don’t text your ex. 

Even when you feel like you’ve taken steps toward healing, when you feel like you have your baggage under control, when you feel like you’ve put your trauma behind you, there are still going to be moments when your past comes back to haunt you.

The problem is, you never realize an almost is an almost at the time. In the moment, you think you’re building a relationship. You think you’re going to become an official couple soon.

You don’t want to agree to too many favors at once. You don’t want your to-do list to run a mile long. You don’t want to be overloaded by your responsibilities. You don’t want to burn yourself out.

It should be the year you work on ridding yourself of baggage, getting over your deepest insecurities, and learning to love yourself unconditionally.

You shouldn’t push yourself too hard. You shouldn’t put too much on your plate at once. You shouldn’t create a lifestyle where you are bound to burn out. 

You don’t want to cling to the past because some people are temporary. Some people are better off left behind.

When you love someone, you don’t question every move they make. You don’t get jealous when they spend time with their friends. You don’t get self-conscious when they have a good time without you. 

You’re not going to be able to give your all to your loved ones if you burn yourself out. You have to be careful when it comes to your own mental health. You have to be careful not to exhaust yourself. 

If someone has been slowly eating away at your sanity, making mean jabs here and there, undervaluing you as a person and disrespecting you as a whole, then you are allowed to create distance between yourself and their negativity.

You’re not stupid for texting him. You’re not stupid for thinking he would actually answer this time. You’re not stupid for falling for someone like him. Stop blaming yourself for feeling, for having a heart.

ARIES: Your guilt is only going to tether you to the past. You have to forgive yourself to move forward.

You need to set a resolution you’re passionate about completing.

GEMINI: You’re looking forward to organizing your physical space and decluttering your mental state.

You cannot allow yourself to head into 2020 feeling like the last year has been a waste, a failure, an embarrassment. 

If you continue to dwell on the past, to chase after hearts who are wrong for you, to allow yourself to be walked over, to surround yourself with the wrong people, to mope about how much you hate your life, 2020 is going to be exactly the same as yesterday.