But just this once, I am putting it out in the open: I love you.
I am an ambivert.
The more I attempt to escape from your trance, the more I am drawn back.
Seeing you that happy makes me think: have I ever made you that happy?
Cowardice convinced us to stay in the same ground, in our safe zone; a zone where we both know we’d always last. Little did we know that ‘safe’ is not at all tantamount to painless, for it still hurt, it still hurt us countless times.
I hugged you the hardest when you felt like you were never good enough. I saw the best in you even if some never did. No, I am not asking for you to do the same, but why did you do this? Why are you doing this?
They say pain changes people, but how come with you, I am still that same helpless, vulnerable girl who is madly in love with her first love?
There was something unexplainable in us, and it may be love, but it may also be not. The pain that wrapped our hearts blinded us both.
I needed to breathe slowly to stabilize my system, to look away to drive away this weird feeling, and to think of other thoughts for I am not liking those that are crossing my mind.