I needed to breathe slowly to stabilize my system, to look away to drive away this weird feeling, and to think of other thoughts for I am not liking those that are crossing my mind.
I am suddenly unaware of what happened, of what is happening. Since when did I ever get this uncomfortable feeling with him around? I can’t seem to remember it ever happened before, but today is different. My inner self seems to be rallying for a reason I can’t understand. I am in a chaos. What did he do to me?
For a moment, it scared me. It scared me how close he is, humming a few inches away from me. His presence… it was intoxicating. Then we needed to go on separate ways. And the rest of the day, I crave for him to be that near to me one more time. I need him close, so close.
His hums brought back so many collection of memories. But more than those, it gave me a feeling that is still unknown. I wanted to look at him in the eyes and find the answer in them, but I didn’t. I couldn’t for I am afraid that when I look at those eyes, I might just fall in love and there is no way to go the other way around.