Whenever I catch myself falling into the hole of comparison, I go back to my ongoing list of lessons learned during my journey of life.
I can hear a whisper of your voice in the unforgiving silence with the breath of a forehead’s goodnight kiss. All I can do is whisper Sweet Dreams into the void.
Someone scolds me, saying I should be grateful to have such an accepting mother. I could write a hundred lists about why she is a great parent, none of which include loving me “despite” being gay.
Even though it’s all absurdly overwhelming, the bright side to this whole mess is that thousands and thousands of years of people have lived through this before you.
We still get mad when things don’t go our way, we still don’t like hearing the word ‘no’ or getting rejected, we still hate it when we want someone who does not want us back and we still hate feeling ignored or neglected. We still don’t know how to deal with abandonment.
When you’re the one that everybody runs to, you start to feel this overwhelming pressure to stand still.
So many Americans are working jobs that they hate because they have that mortgage, car payment, and their kid’s college fund that all keep them tied up as a financial slave to a career that makes them miserable.
Almost everybody is making it up as they go along.
Just like my mom is, I’ve found that I’m super controlling in the kitchen…
It’s up to you to think of your future as a blessing or a curse. Because as long as you’re alive and breathing, the world needs you for something and it’s better to get excited about it and think it needs you for something great instead of thinking that the good days have come to an end.