If I’m Being Honest, I’m Glad We’re Over
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If I’m Being Honest, I’m Glad We’re Over

If I’m being honest, I’m glad we’re over. Seeing you now after my feelings have changed made me realize that we would have never worked out. You’re still in your bubble of appearances thinking that it defines who you are within. You still get validation by seeking temporary attention and chasing superficial things. You still think lying is a smart approach to get what you want so you can conceal who you are. You still think acting overly confident will distract people from seeing how insecure you really are.

If I’m being honest, I’m glad I’m not the one you claim to love because you don’t know how to cherish what you have. You don’t know how to truly love someone. You don’t know how to give because all you ever care about is what you’re getting. That’s why love to you is more about playing games and manipulation than honesty and vulnerability. That’s why love to you is more about how many hearts you can break instead of protecting that one special heart. That’s why love to you will never be about bonding and connecting, it will always be about what looks good on paper or what makes you feel superior.

If I’m being honest, I’m glad I was complete before I met you because you find pleasure in belittling who you’re with. You try to destroy them instead of building them up. You try to mold them into who you want them to be without giving them the freedom to be who they are. You don’t listen to what they’re telling you in a moment of truth or a moment of vulnerability. You don’t hold them when they’re down, you kick them instead. I’m glad I was complete before I met you because it allowed me to see how incomplete you are. It allowed me to see that your love vessel is empty and instead of trying to fill it, you want to deplete any other vessel that comes your way.

If I’m being honest, I’m glad we didn’t make it. I’m glad that now I have the opportunity to meet someone on the same wavelength. Someone who outgrew these childish love games and worked on their character and their integrity. Someone who understands that love is profound and sacred. Someone who knows that love can only make you a better and a more compassionate person. Someone who is looking for something solid, stable and real.

If I’m being honest, I’m glad I didn’t fall in love with you. I’m glad that I saved my heart for someone who is capable of loving me wholeheartedly, someone capable of giving me their heart too, selflessly.

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