I don’t have the energy to care.
You drained all of my enthusiasm from me. You allowed the chase to go on for too long and now I’m too tired to put in even the smallest amount of effort.
You aren’t going to receive the same responses from me as you’re used to hearing. Your texts aren’t going to be answered within minutes because you are no longer my first priority. When you ask me to come over, I’m going to need advance notice, because the days of rushing to see you the second you call is over.
I’m not trying to be mean. I’m just exhausted. You got the best sides of me because I was looking for something in return and since a relationship is never going to happen I’m going to stop trying so hard.
I’m not going to plan out the perfect comebacks to your texts. I’m going to say the first thing that pops into my head, no matter how boring. You’re going to get one-word answers. You’re not going to get special treatment anymore.
Soon, you are going to start wondering why my attitude has done a 180 but you shouldn’t be surprised. Did you really think you could string me along forever? Did you assume my self-worth was so low that you could treat me however you wanted and still watch me drool over you?
Seeing your name on my phone and seeing your smile from across the room doesn’t give me the same thrill anymore. If anything, it’s frustrating. I would rather have you tell me you aren’t interested than continue these games. I would rather be rejected straight to my face so I can move on with my life.
There was a time when I would have done anything to get you. I would miss out on sleep to talk to you. I would skip classes to see you. I would drive miles to hang out at the last second.
But the energy I used to put into our relationship has faded. There’s nothing left. You have taken everything from me.
I don’t have the energy to think of witty answers to your texts anymore. Pretty soon, I probably won’t have the energy to answer back at all. We will probably stop talking and it’s not my fault.
If we drift apart the second I start putting in less effort, then it proves you never cared. You never took care of your share of the relationship. These feelings of mine were one-sided.
I should have realized the chase was useless a long time ago but my common sense never kicked in. Even now, it’s not like I have come to some magical realization about how I deserve better than what you have been putting me through. I’m just tired. I’m not in the mood for it anymore.
I don’t have the energy to chase you. I don’t have the energy to care about you when you could not care less about me.