We have thoughts and opinions that we wish we could let you in on, but we suck at expressing them. We’re sorry if that makes us hard to love. We’re trying our best. We really are.
1. We want to hear all about your feelings.
We don’t want you to act like you don’t have any feelings, just because that’s what we do. Hearing about how much you like us or about how frustrating we are is isn’t going to scare us away. We actually want to know what’s on your mind. The more open you are about your feelings, the easier it’ll be for us to open up to you in the future.
2. We hate having feelings.
Please don’t get pissed when we tell you we’re “fine.” We’re not trying to lie to your face. We just hate the fact that we have feelings, and don’t want to make a big deal out of them. We know we should be open with you if we want a happy, healthy relationship, but we also don’t want to be a bother. That’s why we lock our emotions up inside. You can coax them out, but please don’t force them out.
3. We wish we could tell you how we feel.
It’s not that we’re trying to shut you out. The truth is, we want to tell you how we feel. We just don’t know the right words to say. “I love you” doesn’t even begin to cover it. There must be some other way to describe our feelings, but we can’t figure out what it is.
4. We’re not as tough as we look.
At first glance, we may seem heartless. But if you take a closer look at us, you’ll realize that one of the reasons why we suck at expressing our feelings is because we’re terrified of rejection. We don’t want to spill our hearts out, only to realize that you don’t feel the same way about us. We keep most of our feelings a secret, because it’s the only way we can protect ourselves.
5. We don’t know what the hell we’re doing.
We feel bad when we cry in front of you, but we also feel bad when we push you away. We don’t know what the right move is. Try not to get too frustrated with us, because we’re trying our best. We’ve never let someone else in before, so it’s going to take us a little while to get used to being open with another human being.
6. We really do care about you.
Don’t make the mistake of thinking that we don’t give a shit about you, just because we rarely give out hugs or heartfelt compliments. We care. We just don’t know how to express it. That’s why we’ll end up showing our affection in childish ways, like by teasing you or by telling you we hate you. We know we can be confusing, but we can’t help it.
7. We say, “I love you” in weird ways.
Most people will actually say the words or initiate a passionate kiss, but not us. We’ll tell you we love you by letting you choose the movie on date night and by giving you the last bite of our ice cream. We’ll tell you we love you by doing the dishes when it’s your turn and by spending hours searching for your birthday gift. We’ll tell you we love you in a secret language we pray you understand.