With or without you we were eventually going to fail and honestly, you saved me from a huge mistake. I was so comfortable that even though I knew in my heart I didn’t want that life forever, I honestly had planned on marrying him. So thank you for saving both of us from settling for a mediocre love.
I wanted to go to the beach with you but we never went. I wanted you to meet my parents but you never did.
You know how I know I love you? Even a bad day with you is a better day than a good day without you.
How do you turn around a week later and attempt to put into words the emptiness that now replaces every single bit of positivity you once felt?
“And the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can’t replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse?” — Fix you, Coldplay
Call me selfish- I sure as hell know I am.
Call me whatever you please, but I am choosing to be a voice.
I like having someone to text nothing to.
I want you to stop being sweet and kind and loving and thoughtful. I want you to treat me in a way that doesn’t make every part of my being feel overwhelmed with love and admiration and gratitude and appreciation. And when I hear myself think that, I can’t help but feel that I don’t deserve you at all.
If you’ve ever kissed another human being, you know that the moment before contact is the most urgent, the most quiet, the most anticipated. It is the last inhale before diving under water. It is all momentum. It is all impulse.
You turned the girl who always saw the good in people into a girl who couldn’t trust anyone. I was afraid to love in any way, shape, or form for fear of feeling like this—so completely broken.