When Your Ex Texts You, Put Your Read Receipts On, And Ignore His Ass

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After a disaster of a breakup, I blocked my ex on everything. I deleted the photos, I burned his hoodies, I did everything I could to make him fade into oblivion; but I couldn’t bring myself to block his number. It wasn’t that I wanted him back, I wanted him to want me back. I wanted him to miss me the way I missed what we once had, what he ruined. I wanted to know I was on his mind the way he consumed my thoughts. I wanted him to realize he lost someone who would have given him the world.

But, more than anything, I wanted him to want me back just so I could say NO.

During the self-loathing period of my breakup I couldn’t leave the couch. My heart physically hurt, like I legit thought I was going into cardiac arrest (someone call Dr. McDreamy, please). I called in sick for work, I refused to see my friends, and I put myself into a heartbreak coma. All I could do was binge watch Grey’s Anatomy on Netflix and feast on tubs of Ben and Jerry’s.

My phone never left my side and every time it rang I would get a mini panic attack hoping it was him, but it never was. That’s what dating a controlling person does to you, he would check up on me constantly that when he went radio silent I felt lost.

He was like a remote control, any button he clicked I gave an immediate response. I stopped thinking about my own needs and focused on accommodating him or he would get upset. Being treated like a puppet is debilitating because you get so used to being on strings you lose your independence.

When I finally cut my strings and he lost control of me, he tried to control the way others viewed me. He spread a rumor about me to our friends to try and sway their opinion of who I was. He slandered my name so he could make it seem like I was the problem, and that us ending was my fault. This made me want to hear from him even more. I wanted an explanation of how he could be so cold.

Days went by, then weeks, and then months; and slowly I felt better. I spent less time on the couch and more time going out with my friends. I started say yes to all the things I couldn’t do when I was in a controlling relationship; and my post-fuckboy glow was coming in nicely. I started to become a better version of myself: happier, more confident, and free. I was moving on, and when my phone went off I stopped hoping it was him.

But then one time, it was.

In a relationship every girl hopes their man will say those three little words; but after a breakup you hope for a new set of words and it’s exactly what he gave me: “You were right.”

First of all, yes, thank you, I was right; but could that be a more vague statement? Before really processing his text, I screenshot it and sent it to the group chat to see what the girls thought. After much deliberation, we came to the consensus: HELL NO.

So when you get the ex text you thought would never come, here is why you don’t respond. I repeat DO NOT text your ex back. Unless you received a novel worth of apologies or a phone call begging for forgiveness, he isn’t really sorry; he’s just checking in.

A vague text is just another form of manipulation proving he is just trying to string you along again. He wants you to question what he is saying just to get a response from you as a confirmation that you still care about him. He waited weeks or months to finally communicate with you because with time you heal, and he doesn’t want you to ever fully get over him.

Controllers like dependent and weak people because they can use you to make themselves feel above you. Chances are he was having a bad day where his ego was a little lower than usual and he needed a quick pick-me-up. He thought by telling you something you wanted to hear you would get you to run back to him…HAHA no.

Girl, you are too strong, too beautiful, and too smart to fall for that. Remember what he put you through and know you deserve so much more than that.

So, you need a touch of petty with your newfound self-worth? When your ex texts you (which he will, if he hasn’t already) turn your read receipts on and call it a day. Let him know you got the message, but you don’t need that kind of negativity in your life anymore.

Don’t waste your time entertaining his manipulation or coming up with a perfected response. It’s your turn to have the control because it’s your choice to give him exactly what he wants (don’t do it!) OR redefine your will power.

You got what you wanted and he messaged you, now actually block his number and enjoy the high you get from taking control of YOUR life back. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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