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I hope you are well, though. I hope you found someone that cares about you as much as I did. I hope you’re happy and I hope you don’t have any regrets.

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You should know though, I also mean what I told you of how I feel about you. I do want to hold you tight, but only if you treat me right. I want to keep you warm, but not at the exchange of myself feeling cold. 

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Little closure can sometimes be worse than actually having no closure, because these conversations leave you merely scatterbrained. There are more questions than there are answers; sometimes answers actually just lead to more questions.

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I want to feel the happiness I felt when I was with you. I want to feel everything I felt when we were together.

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Ladies, you know when a man is being inconsistent, when he’s not invested, when he’s doing his own thing. You know what else? He knows too.

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You have taught me that just because you love someone, sometimes it isn’t enough. You have also taught me that even if you aren’t here, I will still miss you. 

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We chase each other around the city, learning about each other and laughing, your hands on my thigh and my fingers in your hair, and we stand on the platform at Islington and you pull me into you, and the entire world goes silent.

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Try your best not to use that time clinging on to people or situations that, despite your deepest genuine efforts, must develop in a different direction than you hoped. Strive to find the peace that comes with releasing expectations.

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You’re angry. And you’re hurt. You’re mad at yourself for opening your heart up again, only to have it be crushed.

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I’ve tried finding myself again. I tried turning this heartache into a journey of self-discovery that I could someday tell my daughter about when her first love rips her heart from her chest. But I couldn’t.