Peace Ofure

Old souls don’t just want to date you, they want to know you.

One day, I realized that I was saying “sorry” all wrong.

You get emotional when you overthink.

That’s when you start stumbling over your words, getting all the things out, crying out with all the pain you have suppressed when you release all the stress and anxiety that you have tried to hide….the room shifts somehow. It feels more honest. More open. Like you can keep going. Like you should keep going.

This is YOLO like you have always dreamed.

It may be a little awkward, but don’t let that stop you.

It makes you angry that you still care. You hate that you still wonder if he misses you at all. If he regrets anything at all. You want to be the kind of girl that can flip her hair and the boy and not be bothered. But you are human.

You both liked each other and it was clear, but he wouldn’t commit and kept saying it was timing. Now, you know that that was bullshit too. You were angry, absolutely. He was wrong for you, yes. You knew that you deserve better, no doubt about it. It has been time to move on, of course. But your feet weren’t moving. You haven’t left.

Sometimes, it’s hard to know what will work until you start dating. You just have to grow together to see if you still want to do that. However, there are other times when you absolutely need to just cut the cord — and quick.

Goodbyes are hard because by the time you have to say them, usually,  you have built memories, discovered more about yourself in and because of the person or place that you are leaving. You’ve grown together, but you are at an impasse now and you both feel it. You can’t grow much more together anymore. You know it’s time, but it’s still hard.

You win some and you lose some; what matters most is how you choose to respond, because believe it or not, you always do have a choice

Thank you for teaching me not to waste the little moments.