Sometimes, when we look back, we can see that paths we did choose were taken a poor time in our lives. We wish we could restart and try that path again.
The phrase “I’m an adult, I can do whatever I want” makes you want to laugh. And cry. And scream.
I do know you knew I loved you,
You told me so yourself.
But since I didn’t come around
I keep feeling like I can’t be sad that you’re gone.
We promise ourselves we are better than this. We tell ourselves we are worth more, that we deserve more.
Age doesn’t have to affect our relationships to a point of destruction if we don’t let it.
He knows the value of caring for yourself,
that to give to others you must first have something to give.
I have trouble not spending my energy on everyone else.
I’ll rip my own lungs out if it means it’ll help someone breathe.
It always felt too big to just call you a friend, or someone that I knew. You were in my head, in my bones, and in my heart in such a subtle way, that it never occurred to me that I loved you.
It’s funny to think about it. The guy who was uncommitted taught me a real lesson about commitment.
It’s a work in progress. Yet I know it’s going to happen. You won’t know it, nor will it affect you in any way. Yet, we are taught that forgiveness sets you free.
Can I even trust me? Can I speak for myself 5 years from now? 10? I don’t know what she will think or feel. I don’t know if she will still want the same things. I still trust she will want forever, because she always has.