This is Why You’re Afraid To Love Her

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You’re afraid to love her because you know she’d be good for you.

You’re afraid to love her because across the board she’s everything you want that you’re afraid to admit you need.

You’re afraid to need someone like that.

You’re afraid to love her because she doesn’t play that game everyone else does.

Her blunt honesty and forward nature is something you’ve been taught to fear.

You’re afraid to love her because you aren’t ready to heal yet. And her love is the type of that heals people.

You’re afraid to love her because you don’t want to lose someone like her if ever you did her wrong.

So you keep her close.

You’re afraid to love her because you aren’t ready to meet the right one yet.

Even though in your heart you know she might be.

So you date others and do your own thing.

But what you’ll come to find is it will be in everyone you look for her and she won’t be found.

You’re afraid to love her because you know she’s not like the rest of them.

You’re afraid to love her because you know she already loves you without needing it to be reciprocated.

That kind of selflessness in a world full of people demanding so much of you is something you fear.

You’re afraid to love her because she loves you to the core of who you are and accepts it.

You’re afraid to love her because you don’t want to disappoint her when she finds out who you really are.

But in your heart, you know even that part of yourself she’d love too. And that’s what you fear.

You’re afraid to love her but I know she’s the one that’s keeping you up at night.

You’re afraid to love her but I know you see her face when you listen to certain songs.

You’re afraid to love her but I know you think of her every time you’ve had one drink too many.

You’re afraid to love her because you know her value and you know her worth.

The truth is I don’t think you’re afraid to love her at all. I think you already do and that’s what scares you. TC mark

Kirsten Corley

Kirsten is the author of But Before You Leave, a book of poetry about the experiences we struggle to put into words.

Trace the scars life has left you. It will remind you that at one point, you fought for something. You believed.

“You are the only person who gets to decide if you are happy or not—do not put your happiness into the hands of other people. Do not make it contingent on their acceptance of you or their feelings for you. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if someone dislikes you or if someone doesn’t want to be with you. All that matters is that you are happy with the person you are becoming. All that matters is that you like yourself, that you are proud of what you are putting out into the world. You are in charge of your joy, of your worth. You get to be your own validation. Please don’t ever forget that.” — Bianca Sparacino

Excerpted from The Strength In Our Scars by Bianca Sparacino.

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