Jessica Dentith

I’ve always tried to save people. I am not sure why I have always gravitated toward someone who would make my life messy

It doesn’t feel wrong because physically, no boundaries have been crossed. His girlfriend couldn’t possibly be mad. He wasn’t “cheating” I’d say to myself.

When I think back to all of the days and nights spent together, quoting ridiculous movies, impersonating fictional characters, laughing at absolutely nothing…I draw a blank. I forget why we can’t be together…question why we’re not together.

It’s a charade, an act that can go on and on for days, weeks, months, and years. And all you’re left with is all of these emotions that weigh in you every step of the way, waiting to defeat you at the finish line.

All of these little things add up over time and we finally feel that this person does not hold a place in our heart anymore. And then you see them and everything you’ve believed up until this point goes out the window. Now they stand before you and you don’t remember how to breathe.

I can survive without you, I’ve proven that for the last 365+ days. I can also stand in a room with you and your significant other and remember how to breathe. I can do all these things, but it does not mean that I do not love you.

It’s the way you tend to forget that your words have an impact on me, and when you speak with haste, my heart and mind become inevitably damaged.

We all have our own history. But one of the biggest mistakes we can make it letting that history ruin a potentially new, interesting story that you can write with another human being.