1. You feel confused. You have no idea where he stands. Does he want to date you? Does he want to sleep with you? Does he want to stay friends? You don’t know if you’ll ever get a straight answer out of him.
2. You replay all of your interactions with him in your head. It’s not for fun. It’s research. You’re trying to decipher everything he’s said and done. Trying to figure out if there’s some hidden message you missed.
3. You play games. You hate playing hard to get and all of those other ridiculous games. But with him, it feels like you have no other choice. You have to hold yourself back from texting him. You have to act casual. Otherwise, he’ll lose interest.
4. You overanalyze everything. When he texts you, you have to read the message three times before you can figure out what to say, because you don’t want to take his words the wrong way. He’s hard to read. You can never tell what he’s thinking.
5. You get irrationally jealous. You go through his social media and freak out when you see him posing with some other girl. Who is she? You can’t just ask him, because that’s not how your relationship works. So you just come up with worst case scenarios in your head instead.
6. You ask friends for help. You talk about him to anyone that will listen, because you can’t figure out what the hell he wants and are hoping someone else will be able to help you figure it out.
7. You feel guilty. Whenever you call him out on his BS, he gives you a sob story that makes you feel like a horrible person. He might by lying through his teeth, but you don’t consider that possibility, because you don’t want to. You want to believe that he had a good excuse for his behavior.
8. You’re left missing him. When he’s actual around, he makes you feel like the luckiest woman alive. But when he leaves, he’s gone for weeks without explanation. He spoils you. Leaves. Spoils you. Leaves. The cycle keeps repeating.
9. You wait for him to speak first. You hate initiating conversations with him, because you never know which side of him you’re going to get. Will he be flirty? Or will he be standoffish? You let him set the mood.
10. You cry over him. More than you’d ever admit. He’s just so damn frustrating.
11. You actively try to get over him. If you’re trying to move on, then there’s a part of you that knows how dangerous he is. That nothing is ever going to happen between you. That it’s pointless to keep hoping for him to change.