Love is wonderful. Love puts life into perspective. It gives value, meaning and purpose. Love is all we need indeed. But, at the end of the day, love does not stand a chance on its own because it relies on other elements for survival like: trust, respect, communication and compromise.
I want to be with someone who is going to be there when I want and need him. I want affection that is available. I don’t want to crave someone’s presence while he is next to me. I want love acknowledged not denied, appreciated not taken for granted, taken care of not destroyed. I want to feel alive not nearly dying. I want to be excited about someone not disappointed by them. And I want the same effort and investment reciprocated.
I want to be with a man who is ready. Someone who fights with me for the right reasons. I want to be with a man who adds to my happiness not takes away from it. Someone who acts on his fear of living a life without me.
I love you wholeheartedly and deeply. You’re always in my mind. I adore and admire you. I find you attractive on many levels. With you, I have one of the most precious moments of my life. Yet, I stand before you feeling helpless, tired, overworked of thoughts and heartache. Confused, doubtful and disappointed. Wounded.
I’m done with feeling my heart crack inside my chest. I’m done wishing you get will it “right” this time. I’m done waiting for you to say it. I’m done watching my idea of partnership fall before my eyes. I’m done with a love without destination. And I’m done with you.
I love you but I’m leaving you anyway.