I Sometimes Wonder Why God Makes Me Dream About You


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It was one of those lonely nights when the world was quiet and everything around me looked pretty and peaceful. It was one of those nights when I didn’t have much on my mind but a lot in my heart and that’s when I talked to God. I told him everything.

I told him how lonely I’ve been and how I’m confused as to why I keep making wrong decisions, as to why I keep loving the wrong people.

I told him how I can take anything but I can’t take another heartbreak. I can’t take another unspoken goodbye.

I told him how I’m thankful for everything and how I appreciate all his blessings but I asked him to take care of the part he’s been neglecting, I asked him to focus a little bit more on my heart. I asked him to heal my heart.

I asked him to erase the pain and the heartbreak. I asked him to make my heart forget about all the times it got rejected and all the time it was left behind.

I asked him to take away the bitterness and the resentment and replace it with forgiveness and love.

I asked him to heal my heart so it can feel brand new.

I asked him to bring me the right person. I told him to only make me fall for the one who wants to stay.

And then I went to sleep with a smile on my face because I knew that God heard me. I knew he was listening. I knew that such a chaste and honest moment cannot be overlooked. This is what God loves. This is what he wants.

Then I had a dream about you. You came to visit me and we spent the whole day together. It was a beautiful dream. A happy one.

And sometimes I think that dreams are just God’s way of speaking to us, guiding us or giving us a hint, a sign or an answer we’ve been desperately searching for. 

I looked up and thanked God because it was just a dream but this was his answer.

The answer to all my prayers. The remedy that will heal my heart.

I think he wanted to reassure me that I’m not crazy, that I don’t have to look so hard, that I don’t have to try to find love in all the wrong places.

His answer was clear and simple, the answer that I secretly already knew, the answer that you will know too, eventually….the answer is you. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

Rania Naim is a poet and author of the new book All The Words I Should Have Said, available here.

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Rania Naim

Writing makes me feel alive. Words heal me.

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