This Is What Will Happen If We Start Over

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When you asked me if we could start over, it took me by surprise. All I could think about was everything I’d do differently next time.

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If we start over, I’ll tell you from the first date that I like you. A lot.

If we start over, I’ll tell you up front that I’m not looking for something casual.

If we start over, I won’t try so hard.

If we start over, I won’t respond to your texts when you ignore mine.

If we start over, I won’t reach out when you disappear.

If we start over, I won’t pretend that your withdrawal doesn’t faze me at all.

If we start over, I won’t wait for you to make up your mind.

If we start over, I won’t be afraid to talk about myself without burdening you.

If we start over, I’ll ask about your life without feeling any guilt for digging.

If we start over, I’ll be a little less confused and a lot more reassured.

If we start over, I’ll want to travel with you more than once a year.

If we start over, I’ll expect to speak to you whenever I feel like it.

If we start over, I’ll want to know that I am the only one.

If we start over, I won’t make excuses for you or your actions.

If we start over, I won’t believe any of the lies I tell myself.

If we start over, I’ll want to hang out with you and your friends, and I’ll want you to meet mine.

If we start over, I won’t want to feel like you’re doing me so many favors.

If we start over, I won’t fight for your attention.

If we start over, I won’t be the same old me.

If we start over, I will like myself a bit more than I like you.

If we start over, I won’t give you as much as you’re used to.

If we start over, I won’t give you the chance to break my heart.

If we start over, I’ll walk away sooner — knowing that it’s only a matter of time before you walk away too. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

Rania Naim

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