Wherever You Are, I Hope You’re Not In Pain

girl on rooftop with vintage lamp
God & Man

I don’t know where you’ve gone, but I hope that you’re okay. I hope you’re not in pain. I hope that any bad feeling you were experiencing in the last moments you were here, I hope it all disappeared. I hope the pain left as quickly as you did.

I don’t know where you are right now, but I like to think you’re somewhere better, not just because that’s what everyone tells me, but because you deserve to be. Because I would’ve liked it if you could’ve stayed a little longer, but since you couldn’t I’m hoping wherever you are is pretty great.

I don’t know where you are right now, but I hope you see me. I hope you hear me. I hope you’re still a part of my life not just when I need or want you to be, but in the moments when I don’t expect you to be there. I hope you’re there for the moments that matter. I hope you share them with me, and I hope I make you proud. I hope those moments make you happy, wherever you may be.

I don’t know where you are right now, but I hope you’re not alone. I hope you have love surrounding you, comforting you, letting you know that everything will be okay. I hope wherever you are you have as much love as you did down here. I hope the place you’re in makes you feel loved in a way you’ve never felt before.

I don’t know where you are right now, but I really wish you were here. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and hug you. I wish you could hug me back. I wish I could say something funny to you and hear laughter in return. I wish I could ask you for advice and hear an answer. Wherever you are I really miss you.

I don’t know where you are right now, but I’ll have to find comfort in the moments when I trust that you’re listening. I’ll have to hope that when I talk to you, you can hear me, that when I need strength you’ll somehow make me feel it, that when I’m thinking about you, you’ll know. I don’t know where you are right now, but I hope I’m not selfish in the fact that I still need you. Because I know you’re no longer here, and it’d be nice if you were, but I hope that you’re around. I hope you’ll understand that I still need you around, and I hope that wherever you are, you’ll still be here for me in some way. I hope that you’ll make me believe.

I don’t know where you went, I don’t know where you’re going, but wherever it is, I hope it’s better than here. Wherever you are, I hope you’re not in pain, and I hope you know that you are loved and missed. Thought Catalog Logo Mark


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Nicole Tarkoff

Writer based in the Philadelphia area. Person who really loves her dog and watching cooking shows. Check out my writing on Thought Catalog and follow me on Facebook! Connect with me and submit your work on Collective World.

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