It goes without saying, no matter how great the person you meet, it will never amount to what it’s supposed to be if you aren’t at your full potential to give them what they deserve. If you are still broken hearted, it will never be possible for you to let them in and be ready to love again. It doesn’t matter what the circumstances are, if you are still broken, it will still be the wrong time.
It’s not fair. How could the universe put a person in your path that genuinely seems like the perfect person for you while you’re not ready for that? How could it be possible that this person could really just be a small mark on your road to healing and becoming the person that you need to become?
Maybe you met them for a reason. Maybe you met them so that they could rip off another layer and show you all of the things that you still need to work on. Maybe the only reason they were placed in your path was so that you could know and understand what issues you still need to work on.
Maybe you’ll never know why this person came into your life when they did. Maybe it was to teach you, or maybe it was to help you grow. Maybe they won’t be gone for good. Maybe this is just the beginning of the journey that the two of you will share together.
Regardless of what the future holds, that doesn’t make the present hurt any less.
It doesn’t take away from the fact that you were able to feel again just to be let down and lose that person from your life. It doesn’t take away the fact that you were forced to relive your last heartbreak and realize that maybe you actually aren’t at all ready to move on.
It’s numbing. It brings you back to the place where you didn’t know how to feel or understand your emotions. It leaves you confused and wondering if it’s you that’s the problem. It literally makes you wonder if you will ever be able to move on and have a happy relationship again. You start to question if your ex and your heartbreak are going to leave you damaged for the rest of your life.
You get angry. You wonder if you’re the toxic one. You start to blame yourself for letting someone good get away. You spend countless hours reflecting on why this is happening and how you could change it.
But as hard as this is, it’s something that you need to accept.
You need to accept that the timing just isn’t right. Nobody is allowed to put a timeframe on your healing and how long it will take for you to get past your pain. You aren’t wrong for not being ready. You aren’t wrong for thinking you were. You are human. You are a work in progress. You are healing, one day at a time.