The days since you left me will turn into months, and those months into years. I will have destroyed every tangible memory between us, and I will finally learn to live a life without you in it.
What seems like a normal trip to the grocery store or just a walk around the block to you can bring up debilitating anxiety, panic, PTSD, and trauma responses for us.
No one has the right to tell you that your feelings are illegitimate because you weren’t in the type of relationship our society deems as “the right one.”
It’s midnight again, and you are the only thing on my mind.
This isn’t fair to either of us anymore.
I have absolutely no idea what I am doing with my life.
I don’t know why I ever thought I had to be “over it.”
You are more than just a person with happy memories to reminisce about. You are a complex creature composed of both beauty and pain who deserves to take the time they need to process the things they have been through.
I wish I could tell you how the day you walked into my life was one of the best days I have ever had.
I miss the days when I used to be able to hang out with my friends without feeling guilty for doing so. I miss understanding the importance of a work-life balance and knowing when a break was not just important, but vital. Most of all, I miss my friends.