Becky Curl

The way you looked at me was unlike anything I had ever experienced before.

Sometimes the time we are given with the people we love is less than what we had hoped for.

I know it’s hard when everything around you is falling apart, but one day everything will be whole again. Life might not go back together the way it used to be or the way you had hoped it would, but sometimes the things we always thought were right for us couldn’t be more wrong.

The days since you left me will turn into months, and those months into years. I will have destroyed every tangible memory between us, and I will finally learn to live a life without you in it.

This isn’t fair to either of us anymore. 

I have absolutely no idea what I am doing with my life.

I wish I could tell you how the day you walked into my life was one of the best days I have ever had.

It’s two years later, and I am still trying to make sense of it all. 

I wish that I could take it all back.

There is no going back.

What about me screams “temporary”?

All I ever wanted was for you to actually care. But you were never ready to do so.

I will always be so glad that I took a chance on you.

I feel like I am 18 again and searching in the mirror for just a glimpse of someone I recognize.

I need you to know that you have always been and will always be enough. 

Making the decision to leave someone you love is never easy.

You deserve to feel whole again. You are not worthless. You are not empty.

Finding real love after being surrounded by abuse will remind you of what it feels like to be comfortable. You won’t be constantly walking on eggshells and waiting for the next time your abuser blows up at you.