To you, right now, sitting on the floor, your heart in your knees, the worst possible feeling overwhelming you. Sadness, and loss hitting you like tidal wave upon tidal wave and the truth is, you are hating yourself for it. Somewhere in the back of your head a voice is telling you “This is ridiculous, stop it, get up.” and you’re letting yourself believe that what happened to you wasn’t that bad, it doesn’t warrant this much pain, this is not okay.
Your feelings, in this moment, what you consider an overreaction, are completely valid. You are allowed to hurt. You are allowed to feel bad. You are allowed to feel overwhelmed with pain. And you do not need to apologise to anyone for how intensely you are feeling right now.
The way you deal with your pain in a moment of trauma is not a direct reflection on your strength. Just because you are crumbling right now doesn’t mean you are weak. In fact, the strongest of us crumble, and the strongest of us know that pain is meant to be felt in full, or how else would you be able to let it go?
So take it in, this moment and feel it in it’s entirety. All of it. The hurt, the pain, the sadness, everything that you think is breaking you and you should not feel. Let it wash over you, cry it out and feel yourself die a little.
How else are you meant to reincarnate into a better version of yourself, if you do not let the old version of you die?
How else is one supposed to become a phoenix if they don’t allow themselves to burn first?