2019, I’m Ready To Let You Go

2019 is coming to an end. Another year has came and went. Every year seems to go faster then the last. But 2019, I’m ready to send you off.

I had low expectations for you. Very low. And rightfully so, because 2019 was not my best year by far.

2019 was another year of growth and loss. I continued to grow stronger as a person, while losing some people along the way. I think as you get older, the years tend to do that.

People single themselves out. They show their true colors. As the years go by, we learn who we want by our sides. What we will allow in our lives. And sometimes that means letting people go. Leaving people and their stupid dramas in the past. Sometimes saying hello to a new year, means leaving some in that year.

So while I don’t have everyone or everything I came into 2019 with, I’m okay with that. I’m okay with saying goodbye to people who no longer serve me. Who don’t add anything positive to my life. 2019, I’m letting you go.

You taught me some important lessons. You showed me that some people are only here for a season. That allowing people to hurt you is not something I will tolerate. Despite the past, it’s okay to let people go. No matter how long you have been friends. No matter how hard it hurts.

Its okay to take time to figure yourself out. It’s okay to step back from other people. Sometimes you need it for your own sanity and peace of mind. Space and distance allows clarity. The more one knows oneself, the more we know what we want.

2019 was disappointing in many ways. I felt very alone at times. Even when surrounded by people. I found my own way. I got comfortable with myself. I realized that a lot can change in a year.

I cried over friends and people I thought would never do me wrong. I met new people. I traveled to new places. I questioned myself and those around me more then over.

But I’m okay.

2019, you provided various challenges along the way. You tested my strength. You proved that life can change at any moment. You showed me it’s okay to take my own path.

I hope that 2020 is kinder. I hope that the life lessons don’t have to be quite so harsh. I hope I continue to grow as a person. I wish well for everyone around me.

It’s time to say goodbye to 2019.

Thanks for the memories.

But it’s time to move on