When you’re not in the mood to do anything, you end up neglecting yourself. When you’re hungry, but you don’t have the energy to put together a sandwich or warm something up in the microwave, you end up staying hungry. When you’re tired, but you don’t have the energy to brush your teeth and wash your face, you end up procrastinating and getting to bed later than you should. When you’re feeling lonely, but you don’t have the energy to text one of your friends or check social media, you end up feeling even more miserable, even more sorry for yourself.
When you’re not in the mood to do anything, it’s hard to push yourself to be productive. You don’t want to go through the motions of getting up, getting into the shower, and getting changed. You don’t even want to pay attention to your favorite show on television or listen to your favorite music. All you want to do is sit there and wait — even though you’re not sure what you’re waiting for. For something good to happen? For your mood to magically change? You aren’t quite sure.
When you’re not in the mood to do anything, you can’t even come up with valid excuses about why you’ve been spending the day in bed. You know you should be up and moving around. You know you don’t have any reason to waste the day away. You know you’re making poor decisions for yourself. But, for some reason, you still can’t muster up the motivation to get something productive done. You end up falling into a dangerous cycle where you’re mad at yourself for doing nothing, which just convinces you to do more nothing.
When you’re not in the mood to do anything, you have a hard time explaining your mindset to the people surrounding you. You don’t know how to tell them you aren’t interested in hanging out, even though you don’t have any other plans, because you would rather sit by yourself in an empty room. You don’t know how to tell them it’s hard for you to muster up enough energy to get excited anymore. You don’t know how to tell them your sadness isn’t like theirs.
When you’re not in the mood to do anything, your mind goes blank. You feel numb. You might look like you’re moping around all day, but really, you’re not thinking about much of anything. You’re just thinking about how you wish you didn’t feel this way, how you wish you could figure out a way to make it better.
When you’re not in the mood to do anything, you wonder whether you’re lazy or sick or sad or whether there’s a deeper problem. You know you have the power to change your situation. You know you should take action, whether that means forcing yourself onto a treadmill or forcing yourself into a therapist’s office, but sometimes it’s hard to do what you know is right. Sometimes, it’s hard to take good care of yourself.