There are going to be times when I close myself off. When I pretend that I am fine. When I don’t want to talk about what has been bothering me. When I want to shove you to the sidelines and act like I can survive on my own.
But I will try my hardest to remember that we are a team. That you aren’t going to judge me. That you want to hear how I am feeling. That my raw emotions will never push you away, that they will only bring us closer together.
There are going to be times when I get jealous. When I feel insecure. When I wish I looked different. When I wonder if you wish you were with somebody different.
But I will try my hardest not to take my imperfections out on you. I will try my best to trust you. I won’t snoop through your stuff or accuse you of cheating when I have no reason to do so. I will remind myself that you are someone I can count on, someone who will remain faithful.
There are going to be times when I feel like hibernating instead of leaving the house. When I want to stay in my pajamas all day long and oversleep. When the last thing I want to do is socialize.
But I will try my hardest to get along with your friends and family. I will put in effort to plan dates, so that we are not always inside watching Netflix. I will not cancel plans at the last second, unless it is an emergency. I will not disappoint you, unless I have no other choice.
There are going to be times when I overreact over stupid things. When I accidentally start drama. When I yell at you for no reason. When we get into arguments that could have been avoided.
But I will try my hardest to treat you with respect, even when I am angry with you. I will not act like you are the enemy. I will not say nasty things that I will regret in the morning. I will compromise with you. I will talk to you like a mature adult, because that is what you deserve.
There are going to be times when I freak out about the future. When I worry that we will break up one day. When I think that you will leave me out of the blue. When I hesitate to say I love you or agree to move in with you because I am afraid of getting hurt in the end.
But I will try my hardest to remember that even though all of my past relationships have failed, that doesn’t mean the same thing will happen again. We have the potential to make this work. We have the potential to last a lifetime.
And that is why I am going to try my hardest to treat you right. I may not be perfect, but I will try my best to be the kind of girlfriend that you deserve.