Never Fall In Love With A Girl As Messed Up As Me

Girl who feels messed up
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Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I come from a fucked up family that has given me fucked up views of love. Because I have baggage from my old relationships that is never going to go away. Because I am not as okay as I pretend to be. Because I am secretly suffering, even when you see me smile.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I will overreact. I will freak out over something small and you will get offended because I don’t fully trust you. You will turn the situation around and get pissed at me for being so sensitive, so touchy, so dramatic.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I will need all of your attention. If you go too long without kissing my lips or uttering those three little words, I will doubt our relationship. I will need constant reminders of your love or I will wonder if I’ve lost it forever.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because you will struggle to understand me. You won’t get why I’ve suddenly become distant for no reason. You won’t realize why I’m slowly pulling away from you, why I’m acting differently today than I did yesterday.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because the complaining never stops. I will always find something to whine about, even when I should be happy. I will always wish that things were better, even when they’re already okay. I am a pessimist. I am a realist. I am a cynic.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I am sensitive when it comes to certain things. You’re going to get sick of the crying. At first, you’ll comfort me with open arms. But after a while, you’ll get tired of it. You’ll want me to stop. You’ll want me to calm down. You’ll want me to be normal.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I don’t have a handle on my emotions. I will get nasty during fights. I will slam doors. I will throw my phone across the room. I will say horrible things I can never take back. I will act out instead of having a mature conversation with you.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because I will be in a constant state of fear, worried that you will leave. I will hesitate to commit to you, because the closer I get to you, the higher the risk will be of you breaking my heart. The more I let you into my life, the more afraid I will become.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because there’s no part of me that you can fix. There’s no soul that you can save. There’s nothing that you can do to help me, no matter how deeply you love me.

Never fall in love with a girl like me, because it feels like everything ends and I can’t handle another broken heart. TC mark

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