This Is How You Forgive Yourself When Everything Falls Apart

God & Man

Right now, I’m at the point where I’m getting used to feeling disappointment, sadness, and broken hearted. I was hurt by people’s lies, broken promises, betrayals, rejections, and I have tried to trust them. Many times, I was blaming on the universe; wondering about why this world is full of cruel people. But then, as I traveled through places and saw people live their life as it is, I knew that I was wrong.

Instead of blaming other people, I should forgive myself more.

I will forgive myself for coming back to the people who broke my trust after they did nothing to fix it. I should have embraced my self-worth and I should know to stop when they don’t appreciate my presence anymore. I should have more courage to walk away since they never see my battles or fight for them. They will not comprehend the hurt, because maybe after all this time, I was the only one who cares about the relationship. I should stop watering the dead roses and try to plant another one, in another garden.

I will forgive myself for putting high expectations on people. I should realize that I can’t change people to meet my own standards and I can’t expect them to always stay. I should always remember that people are temporary and I’m my own savior. People are too busy to save me and I should have the power to pick myself up. People might leave, but I stay as I am with or without them.

I will forgive myself because I’ve taken those sincere people for granted because I was too busy chasing the wrong ones. I should look closer at my surroundings and find those people who really care about me. I should appreciate those people who cherish my presence and for just being myself. Those people who never ask me to fight for them and they will fight for me too; the people who accept me unconditionally, whether I’m at my best or worst.

I will forgive myself for the guilty feeling inside every time I left people behind. Now, I realize that I should have the courage to tell the people if I no longer am comfortable being with them. I should let people know that I always have reasons to leave the relationships that no longer serve me becoming a better person. I shouldn’t make people wonder why I distance myself from them and they deserve to hear my explanations.

But, most of all, I will forgive myself for being the way I am.

I should forgive myself for how I let my heart be broken by my own expectations towards people. I forgive myself because I am always too hard on myself, and I want everything as perfect as it should be. I will forgive the mistakes I’ve done and those bad decisions that I made.

I should stop blaming myself for those relationships which didn’t work out; I should stop trying to fix anything that has been broken in the first place. I will forgive myself for how I always compare my life to others, how I’ve taken the granted all the blessings I had, and on how I hate my flaws instead of loving them.

From now on, when life turns against me, I will love myself more. I won’t blame myself for something that doesn’t go as planned, I won’t say that I’m stupid if I fall in love with the wrong person, and I won’t regret every decision I choose to make.

I will embrace my mistakes and try my best not to do it again. Maybe I was the one who broke my own promises, maybe people expected me to fight for them, but I fought for other people instead, or maybe I was the one who broke people’s hearts. But, I think it’s okay. Simply because humans make mistakes and we shouldn’t blame ourselves for being human as long as we try our best to be a better person.

At the end of the day, maybe I will never be good enough for everyone, but I know that I will always be enough for myself. TC mark

Rayi Noormega

I learn humans and I write about them.

This is me letting you go

If there’s one thing we all need to stop doing, it’s waiting around for someone else to show up and change our lives. Just be the person you’ve been waiting for.

At the end of the day, you have two choices in love – one is to accept someone just as they are and the other is to walk away.

We owe it to ourselves to live the greatest life that we’re capable of living, even if that means that we have to be alone for a very long time.

“Everyone could use a book like this at some point in their life.” – Heather

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