If She’s Not Your First Choice, Please Leave

If She’s Not Your First Choice, Please Leave

If she’s not your first choice, don’t waste her time. Don’t treat her like she’s second-best. Don’t chase her if she’s not the one you truly want to be with. Don’t play games just so you can get over someone who never loved you or someone who abandoned you.

If she’s not your first choice, don’t ask her personal questions. Don’t let her open up to you about her past, her childhood or her fears. Don’t let her reveal her heart to you if you’re not ready to love her. Don’t ask for a place in her heart if you’re not planning on staying there.

If she’s not your first choice, don’t gaze into her eyes and whisper softly in her ears. Don’t tell her your secrets and talk to her for hours because you know that she will do her best to comfort you and she will stay up all night with you until you fall asleep. Don’t awaken her love if you’re not ready to love her. Don’t hold her if you’ll easily let her go. Don’t claim her if you can’t be the one she needs.

If she’s not your first choice, don’t stop her from finding the one who would put her first. Don’t act like you’re jealous or you’re committed when you know she’s in your life to fill a void. Don’t lie to her and tell her that she’s the only one when you’re still juggling. Don’t treat her like a fool because you’re only fooling yourself.

If she’s not your first choice, please leave. Leave and don’t disturb her peace. Leave instead of half-loving her. Leave instead of lying to her. Leave because she doesn’t need you. Leave because she will eventually leave you. She will leave when she tries to share her world with you but you want to share it with someone else. She will leave when she realizes that your presence is not that much different from your absence. She will leave because she learned to choose herself when people don’t choose her.

If she’s not your first choice, don’t expect to be hers. Because she’s the kind of girl who wants to love till her very last breath. She’s the kind of girl who believes in fairytales and forever and growing old with the one she loves laughing at the same jokes on their front porch. She’s the kind of girl who will send you love songs and write you love letters and get your favorite candy every time she sees you. She’s the kind of girl who will give you the world and the galaxies and the universe but she needs you to meet her there. You can’t meet her half-way. You can’t ask her to suppress her love. You can’t ask her to be number two. She’s the kind of girl who wants it all or nothing and she won’t settle until she finds someone who is ready and not afraid to choose her every single day.

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