It’s really hard. To be the one who loves the hardest. To be the one who loves more. And to be the one who always, always, gets our hearts hurting the hardest.
I don’t think it’s our fault that we do it. It’s how our hearts were made, really. It’s how our hearts were molded and held. We were born to be givers. To be the ones with bigger hearts than most, that grow and grow without needing to be full.
We were born to be the type of people to pour out all our love into other people, no matter if they give it back to us or not.
The truth about loving too hard is that it hurts. It hurts for someone to take your heart, while they have no interest in theirs being lifted up by yours. It hurts to tell someone that you love them and not hear them ever say it back.
It hurts to be the one to never let go. To be the one to never forget. No matter how long it has been and no matter how much you have changed. It hurts to not be able to fully ever let that love decay. Because to you, it was magic. And how could someone ever let go of magic?
The truth about loving too hard is that it’s unfair. It’s unfair that you give yourself to so many people who are undeserving of your heart. It’s unfair that you are spending so much time thinking about the one who got away, and you are letting them take up so much space inside of your body even though they are gone.
It’s unfair because you can’t help it. You just can’t help it.
The truth about loving too hard is that despite the hardship, and all the pain, and all the loneliness, on top of everything? – It’s beautiful. It’s beautiful to be the selfless one in the equation. It’s beautiful to love love so much, that you don’t care what their heart does to yours. It’s beautiful to be the one that believes in happily ever after. To be the one who fully and truly dives headfirst without looking back. It’s beautiful to be the one who won’t ever stop trying. Who won’t ever back down.
Loving too hard is always going to be heavy and messy. It’s going to be painful at times too, yes. But please don’t ever stop doing it. Don’t ever stop believing. Don’t ever stop falling. Because one day, you’ll meet the person who catches you back, and who gladly gives their heart to yours.
One day, you’ll meet someone who loves just as hard as you do.