Finding your forever person is hard enough, but finding them five or ten years too early is heartbreaking to say the least.
Finding your forever person is like finding your soulmate. Seemingly impossible, but when you find it, you grab onto it with all the strength that you have. And when you find that kind of love, you never ever want to let go of it. But sometimes, it’s just the wrong timing. And sometimes, that bond breaks and bends and there is nothing you can do about it. It just happens.
When you find your forever person too early, the thoughts of ‘forever’ and ‘ever after’ can go out the window. So often, we find our fairytale when we aren’t even grown yet. We find our happily ever after in high school or college, and we watch that slowly fade into black as time moves on. We find our ‘person’ at an age where we don’t even know who we are yet.
And how can we grow old with someone when we are barely old enough to know ourselves?
I found him when I was 17. He was ‘it’. The ‘one’. The boy of my dreams, the man of my destiny. But at 17, I didn’t know who I wanted to be. He didn’t know who he wanted to be. I didn’t know what I wanted to do in life, and neither did he. We were just two people, floating through life aimlessly, not knowing what the future had in store.
Three years passed, and I still thought he was the one. No one could have told me otherwise. No one could have convinced me that I was too young, or too naive for it to last. I knew it was going to last. I knew it in every cell in my soul and every bone in my body. It was a fact written on my existence.
But at 21, when our college careers were taking flight and when plane rides and time change took it’s toll, we were through. It happened so slowly, that neither of us knew it was coming.
And all of a sudden, just in a matter of minutes, my forever was gone. My one and only, lost. My sanctuary and home for the last 3 years was now – empty.
I had my big love too early. It happened too quickly and ended too slowly. We were moving in fast motion right up until the end. My world went from a vivid red to grey and black clouds that blurred my vision.
When you find your forever person too early, there will be a permanent crack on your heart. When you find your forever person too early, a part of you will break and you will never get that piece back. When you find your forever person too early, it will take years for your heart to come back to its former self.
When you find your forever person too early, you will never be the same.
It’s a bittersweet symphony. Finding great love. Falling in love. Giving your heart to someone. Seeing a future with them, and having kids to call your own. You see a picture of how your life could be. And you see it with them.
But when it ends too soon, it’s hard to get back up again. It’s hard to pick up all of your shattered pieces that have been planted on the ground beneath you. When it ends too soon, it’s hard to get back to the person who you used to be, without them.