I Might Not Know What I’m Doing, But I Know I’m Surviving (And That’s What Matters)

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We all struggle on some days. And sometimes, we can struggle for years on end. We wake up on days where the sun shines too bright and instead of welcoming it, we cover it with our curtains. We all wake up on days where the noise around us screams too loudly, and makes our heart beat unusually fast.

But even on those days where we stay in bed and attempt to shut off the world around us, we still breathe.

We still survive. We still live. Because it’s what we have to do. And it’s what I have to do.

Amidst the chaos that this world rains down on me, I will not let it drench me. I will not let the sickness of negativity infect my cells. I will not let my bruised and beaten down heart stop beating. And I will not let the weight of the world crush down on my shoulders.

We must survive the hardship, breathe through the falls, run through the fire, and welcome the tears.

Because without those hard days, we won’t be able to recognize what the good days will feel like. And even when we don’t know what we are doing, or when we don’t know which way is right, we have to keep walking. And keep on going.

We all get a little lost sometimes. It’s hard to know which way is left and which way is right when your head is already spinning sideways. It’s hard to stay stable when the world keeps telling you how to live your life and what to do with it.

But your life is all up to you. And in order to keep it, you’ve got to keep surviving through the wreckage. I know, it’s so easy to get caught up in everyday pressures that society spits out at us. It’s easy to get scared for your future, and to question if you’re worthy of a great one. It’s so easy to doubt yourself, and to walk blindly through the woods. 

But the beauty of the downfall, comes after you pull through it. You grow stronger, you breathe deeper, and you feel lighter. The beauty of the downfall, is the light you see when you get back up. It’s how you adapt to the struggle and then move on to a better tomorrow.

It’s about how you survived even when you didn’t want to. It’s about not giving up, even when you wanted to.

I might not know what I’m doing, and I might not have everything figured out right now, but that’s the exact point of life. You don’t go on a rollercoaster just for a straight line path that never dips. You want all of the dips, drops and spins that it can offer you.

So, when the world becomes too much for you and when you feel like you can’t take another bad day, just remember how many good days you are yet to have.

And remember to keep on surviving, to keep on breathing and to never stop believing. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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Lauren Jarvis-Gibson

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