If You Told Me My Life Would Be Like This A Year Ago, I Wouldn’t Believe You


I recently had a conversation with my roommate. She said to me, “ If you told me a year ago what my life would be like today, I wouldn’t believe it.”

Truer words have never been spoken.

Sometimes I think about how different my life was a year ago and it’s almost like I have gained a completely new one.

I wouldn’t believe the people who are in my life today. Most of them I didn’t know, or wasn’t close to a year ago. Now, some of my newest friends have become my closest friends. People I couldn’t imagine not being here. It blows my mind that I didn’t even know them a year ago. I can’t explain how thankful I am to have met, or become close to people who truly GET me. I am happier then I have been, and I have these people to thank.

I’m sorry to the people who I lost touch with. Some of them I cut off purposely, but some relationships slowly faded. And while it is somewhat sad to lose these friendships, I am happier now, and that has to say something. This new chapter of my life has allowed me to grow as a person, and some friendships have kind of gone to the wayside. I will always love and care about anyone who helped shape me into the person I am.

If you told me I would lose someone close to me, someone I thought would be around much longer, I wouldn’t believe you. It never gets easier. I wouldn’t have believed that you would be gone, and I would never see you again. I wish I had spent more time with you. I still can’t believe that you’re gone.

This conversation got my head spinning. Sometimes I feel so far removed from the person I was a year ago, I wonder if it’s a bad thing. Is it okay to change so much that you barely recognize yourself? I’m still the same girl. Just much happier, carefree, and honest. I’m so happy with where I am today, and I wouldn’t change a thing.

Sometimes our lives have to change. It might feel forced, but we’re often bettering ourselves. If you told me my life would be like this a year ago, I wouldn’t believe you. But I couldn’t be happier that it is. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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Kristin Rattigan

Chicago born and raised. Stay strong but sweet.

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