Thank you for hurting me. Thank you for ignoring my calls and not replying to my messages. Thank you for being to “busy” to remember that I exist, that there is someone who loved you with all of her heart.
Thank you for the inconsistency. Thank you for making me feel like the most special girl in your life in some moments and making me feel like someone completely insignificant in others. Thank you for the heartbreak. Because of you, I learned how to love again.
I always thought that I was too broken to love and be loved, that I didn’t deserve to have someone who will finally stay. I believed that everyone leaves, so I try not to love so hard so that when they finally do, it wouldn’t be too painful for me.
Before you, I had given up on love. I was so afraid of entering a relationship that I became content on being single. I did everything on my own. I got so comfortable of being in control of my own life that I didn’t want to let anyone it. Then you came into my life and just broke down all the walls that I took years building up around my heart. You melted my heart that has frozen into ice. And for that, I am thankful.
When you left, you reminded me how much I’m worth, that I deserve much more than whatever you gave me. You reminded me that I was worth fighting for. I realized that I deserve to be loved by someone who is afraid of losing me.
Guess what? I found him.
I found the one who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I found the one who takes care of me like I was his precious jewel. I found someone who loves me truly and loyally as much as I do. I found the one who saw both my light and my dark side, yet he chose to stay. I someone who just wouldn’t give up on me no matter how much I tried to push him away. I found someone I can love with my whole heart without being afraid of being hurt or left behind.
Thank you for all the lessons I’ve learned from loving you. Thank you because when you left me, he found me.
I hope you find everything that you’re looking for. I hope that you can also find someone to love as much as I loved you. This is the last piece that I will write for you and about you.
This is my last farewell.