I’m Not The Girl You Date

I’m not the girl you date.

I’m the girl you think about dating.

I’m the girl you flirt with and hit on but that’s all it is.

I’m the girl who will always be there when you need me to be.

The one who shows how she feels a little too obvious sometimes.

I’m the one you know you could have if you wanted to.

But the thing is all you really want is the attention.

Because I don’t keep you guessing.

I don’t keep you on your toes.

I don’t play hard to get.

I’m honest.

I’m not the girl you date.

I’m not the girl you tell your friends about.

But I am the one that’s in the back of your mind.

I’m the girl you can talk to about anyone or anything.

Even if it hurts me to hear.

I’m the one who will boost your confidence when your heart gets broken.

Filling your ears with compliments.

Because that’s how I truly see you.

I’m not the girl you’ll lose sleep over at night.

Or fall head over heels for.

I’m the girl who hasn’t given up on you.

The one who has won over your heart slowing winning a piece of it.

No matter how many times you tried to deny it.

I’m the girl who got into your heart and life carefully.

But I’m not the girl you date.

I’m not the girl who needs a lot of attention.

But I value what you do give me.

Even if it’s less than I deserve.

I’m the girl who will forgive you when you’re wrong.

Because I understand anger is really masked pain.

And I’m the one you can always take it out on.

Knowing I’ll forgive you.

I’m the girl who will answer your text embarrassingly fast.

I’m the one who will open every snap the second I get it.

And look at every story first.

I’m the girl who will blow up your notifications.

Because in a generation I fail to understand apparently that’s showing you care.

I’m the girl who will always give more than I get.

The one who starts every conversation.

The one who makes every plan.

The one who doesn’t meet you halfway but you don’t have to raise a finger.

I’m the girl who will give her best.

Give the most.

Love the hardest.

Because that’s all I really know how to do.

I’m not the girl you date.

I’m the girl you’ll always think is right there waiting.

Until I get tired.

Tired of waiting.

Tired of trying.

Tired of hoping.

Tired of trying to prove I deserve you.

And when I get tired enough.

I’ll walk away.

And it’ll break my heart to not look back.

It’ll break me to learn undo you.

Because you’ve become a habit.

I’m not the girl you date.

I’m the girl you think about dating.

The girl you know would be good for you.

The girl you look for every reason not to take a chance on.

I’m not the girl you date.

But when it’s over.

And I’m the one that gets hurt.

I’m the girl you’ll look back at with regret.