The Utter Heartbreak Of Loving Someone You Can Never Be With

 Taylor And Matt
Taylor And Matt

There’s this other type of love that doesn’t come dressed in everything you’ve ever wanted. It isn’t every dream coming true. It isn’t waking up one day next to someone and realizing the only thing that matters is them.

It’s opposite really. Yes, it’s everything you’ve ever wanted standing right in front of you but they aren’t yours to have. It’s every dream you thought of, imagining a life together but the closest you’ll ever get to it is when they meet you in your dreams. It’s waking up alone and looking over at a bed you wish they were in. It’s your heart breaking but you can’t even say anything because how do you explain or justify heartbreak when it’s someone you aren’t even with?

But the pain is real. The love is deep. And it cuts you to a point where you’re on your knees crying alone because the only thing that hurts more than heartbreak is finding the right person when you or they aren’t ready for it.

It’s hard to come to terms with love being both beautiful and heartbreaking. But that’s the reality of loving someone you can’t be with.

The honest truth is sometimes regardless of how good you might be for each other it just won’t happen.

I think there are such things as soulmates not ending up together. And as much as I don’t want to believe that, I think you can go your entire life holding a little piece of your heart for someone else.

The right love is something we’d define as perfection but the right love at the wrong time are a lot of people’s reality.

And you walk around with all these feelings you don’t even know what to do with because the only person you feel something for is the same one who cannot receive these intense emotions that keep you up at night.

For one reason or another, you’re both standing there in front of each other and

there’s no way really to move because no matter what step you take it will never be one together.

Sometimes love just isn’t enough to make something work.

So you painfully walk away looking over your shoulder one or more times. You begin to question love all but entirely. You question yourself and your judgment. You wonder why can’t it be so simple? And you’re left with no other choice but to move on.

Time moves on and the ache in your heart begins to fade away. But the honest truth about loving someone you can’t be with is no matter how long you spend apart and grow on your own, those feelings don’t just go away.

You can bury them and hide them and even love again.

But there will come a time where you cross paths and every emotion will hit you like a wave and you’ll find yourself drowning in those same feelings you thought you left behind long ago.

You’ll look this person in the eyes and know whatever that ‘it’ is, it’s still there. And it burns you from the inside out with just a simple look. And one simple encounter will prove to you some things never change. TC mark

Kirsten Corley

Kirsten is the author of But Before You Leave, a book of poetry about the experiences we struggle to put into words.

Trace the scars life has left you. It will remind you that at one point, you fought for something. You believed.

“You are the only person who gets to decide if you are happy or not—do not put your happiness into the hands of other people. Do not make it contingent on their acceptance of you or their feelings for you. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if someone dislikes you or if someone doesn’t want to be with you. All that matters is that you are happy with the person you are becoming. All that matters is that you like yourself, that you are proud of what you are putting out into the world. You are in charge of your joy, of your worth. You get to be your own validation. Please don’t ever forget that.” — Bianca Sparacino

Excerpted from The Strength In Our Scars by Bianca Sparacino.

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