When you’re depressed it isn’t just a state of sadness. It’s not just something you can simply brush off as having a bad day. Because depression is a series of bad days with no explanation as to why. And you’re overcome with guilt for feeling these things. People ask you why you’re depressed and you can’t actually answer it properly. You just are.
You’re doing everything you possibly can to shake this unwelcomed feeling, that has made a home inside you.
You get up and before your eyes even open, you just want to go back to sleep. You already know the type of day you’re going to have, based on that weight that feels heavy in your chest.
Your alarm goes off and you turn over the other way and close your eyes. It takes everything in you to just get out of bed. You just want to lay there for the day and not move.
But then you muster whatever strength you have, you get up. You get dressed. You look presentable because as dead as you feel inside, you won’t ever dress the part.
So on these days, when it feels hopeless, when you feel like you don’t have anything to look forward to or when it physically hurts you the thought of getting through the day, when you want to just go back to sleep, I want you to remember this…
You are not who you are at your worst.
You are not who you are at your most depressed.
This is not a reflection of you and something you’ve done wrong.
This is not a character flaw.
You do not have to be the happiest person in the room.
It’s okay to be sad.
Just don’t let that sadness consume you.
All you have to do is get through the day.
It doesn’t even have to be a good day, just get through the day,
Tackle the next 24 hours.
Do your absolute best you can whether it’s in school or work.
And maybe tomorrow will be better.
When you’re depressed and suffering, tomorrows are what you hold onto. Those moments of bliss and happiness for however short it lasts are what you look at.
But if you can remember one thing, those moments of happiness will come back around too.
This state of overwhelming sadness is merely a state of being. Feelings pass and that’s all this is. And this depressed state you’re in will too. You will get through this. WE will get through this. Because I’m with you in this too and you are not alone.
Repeat that, ‘you are not alone’, even in those moments it feels like you are.
All I ask of you is to not give up yet. Hold on to that tomorrow or the next day. Because there are better things ahead than this moment and you have to believe that. You have to trust me.
You’re stronger than you realize. You’re more beautiful than you see in your reflection. And you will get through today you just have to get up, put on that smile and tackle the mother fucking shit out of the day.