You know the host of that show, “Adam Ruins Everything”? His name is like, I wanna say Raoul? Well, Raoul claims that most of our childhood memories are actually just figments of our imagination, mainly on account of how suggestible long-term memory can be. Here’s my question:
What if I never had to use my long-term memory to recall the specifics of an event from my childhood because I never forgot said event in the first place? What if there wasn’t a single day in the weeks and months and years that would follow where I didn’t spend at least a few minutes painstakingly inventorying the memory of that one specific, particularly traumatizing series of moments?
Because I can still recall the sense of dread that overcame me that night as I watched Pops’s head collapse onto his pillow despite his own best efforts to stay conscious, how absolutely helpless I had suddenly felt, and then how all of that fear and worry suddenly vanished…
Of course, what happened next was obviously this thing fucking with me as well but I can still remember how at the time, it seemed like a perfectly natural reaction to forget about all of that useless fear and concern. Without even really thinking about it, my grip on the curtain tightened as I turned back to the window and pulled it aside.