I didn’t give in sexually, but I was pretty hungry. I sat down with her and we ate, pretty much in complete silence. She had the nerve to ask me “are you still upset with me?” I just looked at her, and she knew it. I finished eating and started heading upstairs. She chased after me, grabbed my hand, and once again, cried into me. Although this wasn’t a whole bunch of tears like earlier, she was still sad.
You know, throughout all this, I still see flashes of the person I used to love so much. They way she walks, the mannerism when she brushes her hair back, etc. I realized, this is just her way of guilting me, I’m not gonna stay with someone who I can’t trust, second guessing everything they tell me. I told her to “leave me alone, we’ll talk some more tomorrow.”
I go through my routine and go to bed, where she is waiting for me with one last attempt to have sex. I finally told her “this isn’t happening, and you know it. You have Zack on speed dial, call him if you want a quick fuck.” Out of rage, or maybe to prove that she doesn’t love him anymore, she smashed her phone on the floor. She said “I told you I don’t like him anymore! I want to be with *you** and only you!* Our bedroom floor is carpet, so her phone didn’t break but the sim card and battery flew out which made it look bad (a.k.a cracked back). I told her to “pick up your fucking phone and stop bothering me, I’m trying to go to sleep. You should’ve thought about our relationship when you went around sleeping with other people”.
More crying, and she fell asleep that way. I fell asleep afterwards, and we didn’t have sex. I woke up this morning at 5am without waking her, hit the gym for an hour and went to the divorce lawyer. He has told me to not tell her anything about the PI investigation or anything else involving the divorce. He thinks it would be wise if I thought this over thoroughly, as after divorce it would be tough to go back. He told me to give him a call when I was ready to move forward. I received a copy of the prenuptial agreement, and we read it over. It’s still valid (thank god). He didn’t have much time to speak with me since he shouldn’t have been in office for MLK but he has me and one other client early and he wanted to go back home.
I’m planning on calling him tomorrow morning to move forward with the process, there is no way at all I’m staying with Jenny. After the meeting, I texted my brother and asked him how things were going. He said “about back to normal.” Well, good for him. It’s weird, I’m happy for him, but I kinda wish I had a partner to go through this with me together. It’s tough getting a divorce, but I’m not a bitch and I can get through this.
Jenny texted me this morning asking “where are you?” a few times. I didn’t reply. I’m at home now, it’s pretty awkward. She’s trying to set up a movie date with us tonight, and I keep rejecting.
To clear up a few things: Some people are telling me I’m bragging on these posts. I never said I have a huge cock, never said I was insanely attractive, never said I’m filthy rich or have a great job. I don’t consider myself above anyone at all. The only reason the sexual details were included is because it’s a common reason to divorce. A lot of divorces are over sexual dissatisfaction.
And, thank you all for the support. There is no way I’ll be able to read all these replies and PMs, but I’ll try to reply to as many as I can. There will probably be a couple more updates here, and I’ll post another update thread in a few months on how I’m doing and how the divorce went.
Again, thanks for the golds, but this is a throwaway as I’ve mentioned. It’ll make it much easier to read comments, so thanks!
TL;DR: She cheated, Carly got cold feet and didn’t cheat, I’m getting a divorce, my brother may not be.