1. Confusion. Your almost is always sending you mixed signals. One day, you will be convinced they want a relationship with you, and the next day, you will be convinced you’re the one who cares more and you’re only fooling yourself to think you’ll become a couple. No matter how hard you try to figure out what is running through their mind, you never know exactly what your almost is thinking. Just when you feel like you have them figured out, they do something that throws you completely off guard and you’re right back at square one again.
2. Excitement. You get butterflies whenever their name appears on your phone, whenever they compliment you on your outfit, whenever their skin brushes against yours on accident. There’s so much chemistry between the two of you that you’re constantly feeling electricity. You’re constantly on a high. You’re constantly feeling awake, adventurous, alive. And you never want that feeling to go away.
3. Impatience. There are some moments when you’re perfectly happy with your almost relationship because it feels like you’re on the right track. And there are other moments when you just want them to make a damn move already. They obviously like hanging out with you and they are obviously attracted to you. So why is it taking them so long to make it official? What is the holdup? Should you be the one to take charge? Or do they simply prefer to take things slow?
4. Jealousy. It’s hard not to get annoyed when your almost is flirting with other people — but you have to remind yourself that they don’t owe you anything. They aren’t in an official relationship with you. They don’t have to stay loyal. Of course, that doesn’t make the situation suck any less. If anything, it sucks more because you feel like your emotions aren’t allowed.
5. Fear. Even though you are willing to take a risk on love, there’s still a part of you that is nervous about everything backfiring on you. There are a million questions that run through your head, more commonly than you would like to admit. What if this person hurts you? What if they end up breaking your heart? What if you get stuck grieving a relationship that never existed in the first place? What if getting involved with them was a stupid idea? What if you should’ve kept your heart to yourself?
6. Disappointment. When someone you assumed would become your partner ends up leaving you alone, you feel foolish. You feel played. Above all, you feel disappointed. There were so many things you wanted to do together. There were so many plans you imagined in your mind. And now it’s all over. They’re gone. And they’re never coming back.
7. Relief. Even though you had your heart set on ending up with them once upon a time, it’s really a relief that your almost relationship is over. It’s a relief that you don’t have to keep wondering how they feel. It’s a relief that you can finally move on, finally find someone who is better suited for you.