1. You’re never sure whether it’s really over. There have been times when he went MIA for a week and then returned as crazy about you as ever. Every time he leaves, you’re unsure whether you should start working on getting over him or whether you should wait it out because he’s bound to come back. Loving him is confusing because you never know what you’re going to get. You never know whether he’s going to text you to hang out that night or ghost you for good.
2. You were more than lovers, you were friends. There are some people you’ve dated that you felt less of a connection with than this person. Even though you never made things official, losing them is the worst kind of heartbreak. One of the hardest parts is you feel like you don’t have any right to be this upset over missing them since you were never a couple. You aren’t sure whether anyone else would understand the connection you two had. Honestly, you’re not even sure if he saw the connection you had.
3. You’re left with a million questions. It’s hard to get over someone when you aren’t sure why they walked away. It’s even harder to get over someone when you aren’t sure how they felt about you in the first place. Did their feelings match yours? Or were you making up the chemistry in your head? Are they perfectly fine without you? Or is this separation as hard on them as it’s been on you?
4. You never got to live out your wildest fantasies. It feels unfair that this person walked out of your life before you had the chance to experience everything you daydreamed about doing with them. Maybe you never went on vacation together. Maybe you never celebrated the holidays together. Maybe you never even kissed or slept together. Either way, there are so many things that you two didn’t get the chance to do that you had your heart set on experiencing.
5. You’re convinced you would have made a perfect couple. You made each other laugh. You had fun together. You could talk about anything – from television shows to music to your deepest, darkest fears. You feel like they really understood you, like they wanted the best for you. You were happiest when you were texting them, joking around with them, sitting side-by-side on the couch with them. You’re convinced you would have been great together, which is why it’s so heartbreaking you never became official.
6. Deep down, you don’t want to move on. Even though you know you should be putting effort into getting over this person, you would rather put effort into chasing them. They’re the only one that you want and there were times when a relationship was so close you could taste it. You don’t want to give up on them after all the time you invested in them. You always want to give them one more chance, even when they don’t deserve it.